Posted in Accidental Overdose, Addiction, Anxiety, Benzodiazepines, Opioids, recovered, recovery, Uncategorized, Withdrawal

I Traded the World, its Blood Sucking Shrinks, its Dangerous Meds & Never-ending Recovery for Jesus Christ and 100% Total Healing for a Lifetime

Since 2007, I haven’t needed or wanted the world’s answers to addiction. To put it mildly, the world has no answers.  All they do is tell you it’s some (theorized) disease and that you’ll never recover.  What kind of ridiculous theory is that?  Where’s the hope? It only leads you down a slippery slope of revolving door rehabs, shrinks and their dangerous psychiatric medications, multiple mental diagnoses (again, fictitious), and ongoing failures that lead to self doubt, disability and low self-esteem.  I am a child of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords – Jesus Christ. He suffered and died for me (and you) during a grizzly crucifixion, as a sacrifice for my sins so that I could be set FREE from sin and Satan’s power.  Faith, unless it’s put in action, is not faith at all, so I made the choice to live my faith for the first time back n May 10th of 2007… the day I left detox.

Therefore if the Son sets you FREE,  you shall be FREE indeed.”

John 8:36 – The Bible

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For those of you who haven’t yet read or heard my story, you don’t know my background.  In a nutshell, from age 11 through most of my adult years (except for the past 11 glorious FREE & HAPPY years), nefarious doctors fed me all kinds of dangerous psychiatric medications, opioids, benzodiazepines, etc, in order to placate me for my complaints of chronic pain and resulting stress to my life. As soon as they gave me a new medication, there were new problems that ended up being misdiagnosed side effects of the meds.  It was as though I was thrown off the tallest mountain and I just kept falling, without ever landing.  In March of 2007, that landing was my near death experience… a massive accidental overdose that could have easily been prevented by never prescribing what they did… a crash and burn that I wish on no one!

My point in this post, is to tell you that Jesus Christ is your one and only answer to addiction.  If you have received Him, and you are truly saved, you can access your freedom today – right now.  If you’re not saved because you don’t yet know Jesus, you need Him.  He is the Creator of all things and He created you!  He is able to fix what you messed up.  He puts us back together, better than before.  He heals!  He delivers!  He is faithful!  He will never leave you, forsake you, or disappoint you.  Make Him yours!

If you’re finding yourself in the web of deception created by rehabs and doctors, please contact me and we can talk.  I went through quite a lot of darkness until I found the Light, so I learned a few things along the way that may help you.  The facts are:

  • Jesus can heal you for a lifetime
  • Your faith will make you whole
  • But to you who fear my name shall the sun of righteousness arise with healing in its wings. (Malachi 4:2)
  • ‘Relapse’ is just another term for doctors and facilities saying, ‘Give me your money’
  • Don’t take those ’12 Steps’ to Hell


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Give Yourself Permission to Fail ~ As Long As You Never Give Up, You WILL Succeed


I came across this truly inspirational short video about ‘Falling Forward’ and I really felt the need to share it with all of you today, because you’re all winners.  Bottom line is not to worry about how many times you have failed; as long as you don’t give up, the time WILL come when you WILL succeed and win.  This could apply to finally getting clean from drugs or alcohol, attaining a goal you thought you never could, or something else you hope to accomplish in your life.  Please watch this video.  It only lasts a few moments, but the message will last for the rest of your life!

One line in this video that I took away to pack away for myself was:  “If you hang around in a barber shop everyday, eventually you will get a haircut.”  For me, I will never give up rescuing people from addiction and seeing them through to full recovery.  It’s my life… my passion… and my ministry.  I do it for YOU!

God bless!


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Should I Stay or Should I Go?

The question, should I stay (in addiction) or should I go, was never a consideration for me over 11 years ago… at least not until withdrawal became so bad that it nearly killed me.  For all the years of my former addiction, I never even gave a thought to whether I was addicted or not… it never came up in the dumbed down former mind of mine in those days.  It’s strange what drugs do to your head.  I believe that there is a spiritual aspect to drugs and that they have the ability to literally possess you.  They cause you to focus on only them and nothing or no one else.  If you’re a Christian, they even take God out of the equation of your life and put Him on the back burner.

giphyMy (unscrupulous) doctors all told me that I needed the lethal cocktail that they gave me.  As a nurse, it was embedded in me to never question them.  They knew best… or did they?  I never realized that I was handed all of those nasty prescriptions so that I would become addicted to be a cash cow for my doctors.  For review, to those of you who don’t follow my blog, I was given prescriptions for the following drugs by one medical practice of two doctors who both saw what the other one was prescribing: hydrocodone, soma, percocet, norco, morphine, codeine, methadone, oxycontin, fentanyl tablets, fentanyl patches, an ever-changing antidpressant, and Ativan.  When I got well from my ‘crash and burn’,  a coma and a near death experience,  the attending doctors and all the staff at the hospital kept telling me that they couldn’t believe I was alive and well.  I told them that it was Jesus who rescued me – not them.

Getting back to the topic at hand.  Oftentimes, you don’t realize you’re addicted – you don’t even think about it.  All you think about is your next high and not getting sick in withdrawal.  I’m asking you right now to think about your addiction please.  Consider the cost.  Try hard to stay in the moment of lucidity. One thing about people who ‘use’ is that lucidity comes in rare fleeting moments – if at all.  The drug takes over your mind and prevents you from thinking; however, you CAN if you try hard and pray even harder.  After all, we both know that the way you’re living isn’t enjoyable, is it?  Of course not!  Fear is what is keeping you from getting well, not enjoyment.  No one enjoys addiction; it’s pure bondage and no one wants to be in chains.

You can’t run and you can’t hide from drugs or alcohol.  Addiction is ever-present until the day you make the choice to leave it behind.  Yes, it’s the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do, but you WILL get through it and you’ll finally have the life God gave you, with the purpose you were created for.  Please get help today and don’t do it on your own because it’s far too dangerous and you could die.

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

(Psalm 147:3)


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No More Counting the Days

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The day you no longer find yourself hard pressed to keep track of the number of days, minutes and seconds since you last used, is the day you’re truly free. We all did it! The awakening comes right after detox,  the counting comes right after the awakening, the freedom comes when the counting just doesn’t matter any longer because it’s so over. Once you reach your destination, and there are no more miles to go… it’s now about settling in and enjoying where you are, and enjoying the grace and power Jesus supplied you with to get there!

If you haven’t yet entered detox, the only counting you need to do is to count the cost of your addiction.

What’s Stopping You?

If you know all the facts on how detox takes place… understand that you’ll be set free for life… that a brand new awesome life is waiting for you… and have support from someone who will stick with you to see you through it all… then, what is the obstacle that is stopping you from moving forward?

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