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The word, ‘giant’, can be used in many ways and has many applications.  In this brief post, I’m using it to describe those things in your life which cause you to feel  helpless to destroy.

What, or who, is YOUR giant?  A giant is something or someone that you perceive as overpowering… overwhelming… unconquerable.  The most famous ‘giant’ of all is Goliath from Scripture. As HUGE as he was, that’s how small David was beside him.  We all know what happened.  Little tween David used just one smooth stone to knock him down so that he could kill him.  David had the faith to know that he could conquer anything, as long as God was with Him.  He knew the Lord would always have his back – no matter what.  You say that David took 5 smooth stones with him – just in case?  He did take 5 stones with him; however, the other stones were to kill each of Goliath’s 4 brothers, in case he had to defend himself.  He knew that all he would need would be the one stone for each because when you yield to God, God conquers.

With God ALL things are possible.
Matthew 9:26

As is the case with just about every person in an addiction, the giant is your drugs or alcohol.  In the many years of my former addiction, my giant was my drugs.  I just gave in and gave up that I was unable to fight this giant because of the very real fact that I was dumbed down.  I nearly lost the fight in March of 2007, when I had a near death experience from the massive accidental overdose temporarily took my mind and  nearly took my life.  It wasn’t until I was fighting for my life in the CCU of a hospital, that I realized Jesus was the only way to live in order to never use drugs again!  I lived and was victorious over the death of what was my giant.  God was on my side and had my back because I was willing to let Him in.  I only needed one smooth stone!

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Why do I share my private life when I was once in addiction?  It’s all in the two verses below:

Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

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Fear, by definition, is an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.

There are a great deal of ways to talk about fear; however, today I want to discuss fear after detox and during recovery.  I want to talk about it because it was something I personally and profoundly experienced during my first few months after getting out of detox.  I learned how to work through with the Lord’s supernatural help… and got rid of it for good. Now, anxiety is another issue; please don’t confuse the two.  While both fear and anxiety produce fairly similar responses, fear is an emotional response to a known or very definite threat.  Anxiety is often a response from an unknown threat.

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear,
but of Power and of Love
and of a Sound Mind”
2 Timothy 1:7

By the time of my near death, in 2007, I was so dumbed down by drugs, that I did everything without any thought, without identifying obstacles, and without considering consequences.  My mind wasn’t working properly due to what the drugs were doing to my brain, and I was afraid of very little.  Don’t get me wrong… I was still fearful of certain things that plagued me during my whole lifetime, but most of my fears were squashed by the 12 different narcotics I was taking.  After detox, when my mind awakened, I had exaggerated fears.  I didn’t know how to cope without pills.  I knew I’d never go back to drugs, but I also missed being able to pop a pill and find all fears were gone.  There are no solutions in any pill.  Solutions rest in God.  Don’t be foolish and find yourself fighting for your life in an intensive care unit as I had to; it wasn’t pretty.  Choose Jesus, not drugs.

0c33aea2329f1a8c8e4d24737529aa02-fear-the-fearDo you have fears?  Whether you’re on drugs, fresh out of detox, or none of the above, fear is very really and crippling.  Pills do NOT hold the answer.  Secular psychiatry and psychology do NOT hold the answers.  The Bible does.  Specialized life coaching is a good method to help a healthy mind combat fears.  We do that within our ministry… whether you’re in recovery or not.  Check us out!  Recovery can be awesome!


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The End Game

The End Game is the point or reason as to why we do what we do.

When you are involved in something that is so soul wrenching… so lethal… so unpredictable… so enslaving… so painful… and so destructive as addiction is, there must be an end game for you to ‘need a way out’.  I didn’t say ‘want’ a way out, I said ‘need’ a way out.  No one who is in an addiction ‘wants’ a way out… that’s just not possible.  Addiction to drugs/alcohol own your very soul.  An imperfect end game is the reason for failure.  It’s also the reason how the highly funded, sick, sadistic, character assassins – the cult of the 12 steppers – came into being, with their fake disease theories and lying powerless teachings. they have led the Lord’s sheep astray.

I believe that we are all sheep who have gone astray – just as the Lord tell us in the Bible.  Without Jesus Christ, the Good Shepherd, we get into trouble.  More people look to follow rather than lead.  To follow is an innate nature that God placed within our souls so that we follow HIM. Even when we choose to follow a different shepherd, the sheep behavior still ensues. When one sheep moves, the rest will follow, even if it is not a good idea, and even if it gets them killed. The flocking and following instinct of sheep is so strong that it caused the death of 400 sheep in 2006 in eastern Turkey. The sheep plunged to their death after just one of the sheep tried to cross a 49.2 foot deep ravine, and the rest of the flock followed. One by one, they each fell to their death. Even leaders are followers… they engage others to follow in what they follow (or believe). So, in essence, all are followers.

My sheep hear My voice,
and I know them,
and they follow Me.
(John 10:27)

Following the right Shepherd, is the most important decision we ever need to make in our lives!   It’s a matter of following the right Leader or Shepherd.  There is only One true Shepherd.  His name is Jesus and He is the only Messiah of the world. He, and He alone, is my end game… my reason for living…  the missing link that I finally linked back up to… the only one to whom I need to be accountable to. Don’t you have choices as to whom you follow?  Of course you do!  Free will is a gift from God.  He doesn’t force anyone to follow Him.  He wants to be loved based on His own merit, along with your faith. He wants you to love Him purely.

Know ye that the Lord He is God:
it is He that hath made us,
and not we ourselves;
we are His people,
and the sheep of His pasture.
Psalm 100:3

What was my end game when I was struggling to breathe and stay alive on my death bed in the cardiac care unit – after an accidental massive drug overdose?  I was after the assurance I needed of making it to Heaven.  I was ‘at the door’ of death.  I was told I was facing death, as my heart, live and kidneys failed.  I knew, despite the fact that I asked the Lord to save me many years before, I was headed for Hell because of drugs.  We cannot do drugs or alcohol and expect to make it to Heaven.  Addiction screams to God that your choice is not to obey Him… that you want to do it your way.  Your way will never work, and you know that. Please don’t wait until your last few breaths, because you may not have those breaths – your death may be sudden, without warning. Don’t allow your riches to control you and lead you into a place where you think nothing can touch you.  Your riches will not give you eternal life and tomorrow, they could be gone.

Life is truly easy; it’s not hard.  We make it hard because we want to be a sheep and follow our own misdirection rather than follow God.  We are in rebellion.  We are in a world where ‘selfies’ are what’s most important – pure narcissism! We put everything first, before we look to God.  People will look to God when they come to a crossroad where sickness or danger or hopelessness or loss of employment happens or a failed marriage is impending, or a loved one’s death happens, and then they first scream out, GOD – HELP ME!!!.  Don’t wait for that time.  Bring Jesus back into your life today, or invite Him in for the first time.  If you don’t know how to be saved, please CLICK HERE.

As if you didn’t realize it by now, Jesus was, and will always be, my end game.  I want to spend eternity with Him!  He needs to be your God too… your accountability partner… your reason for breathing… your solution to your addiction. He is not just the way, He’s the ONLY WAY!

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Success comes in many sizes, colors and shapes. For those of you just starting out in recovery, success means staying clean… at least it was for me over 11 years ago when I just came out of detox. I counted the days and hours from when my addiction ended.  I remember asking myself, what now? It was daunting. I didn’t know how to live without drugs because I began ‘feeling’ again and was really challenged by emotions that I hadn’t felt for many, many years while on drugs.

Not being a believer in the 12 Steps, I went the Biblical route with Jesus. It was me and Him alone. He got me through victoriously. My husband, when I said to him, “what do I do now? I don’t know how to live without drugs”?  So, Bill said to me, “spend time alone with Jesus; get to know Him again and He’ll direct you”. I did just that and I have never craved drugs again since that day. Jesus and His Word (the Bible), along with good discipleship and fellowship, is everything we need to stay on the “straight and narrow”. It’s all in the Word of God – the complete manual for living life to the fullest.  The ‘big book’ from the 12 steppers is just an really poor and evil imitation of the real deal, The Bible.  So, success is simply a decision and it’s found in Scripture.  Getting through each day – one day at a time – is only a problem when you’re addicted; when you’ve been set FREE, it’s a joy looking forward to each healthy day.

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It’s a normal human response to want to run when adversity happens. It’s at that moment, when we feel like running, that we need to stop… take a breath… and figure out how to cope. Of course, this doesn’t apply in an emergency such as running when you see an oncoming car! This applies when something hurts your heart and mind… when you feel diminished as a person… when you are abused… when divorce happens… when you feel hopeless… when you think no one cares. These are the times when most people run to drown themselves in drugs and/or alcohol. When you come to Jesus, here’s what happens:

No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man;
but God is faithful,
who will not allow you to be tempted
beyond what you are able,
but with the temptation
will also make the way of escape,
that you may be able to bear it.
Come to Jesus today.  He rescues and He delivers.  He also offers you the great gift anyone can offer – eternal life.

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I am talking about regrets today – not because I know more than you do, or because I am better than you are – but because of what my experiences in life have taught me.  The lessons I have been taught are ones that you can take or leave; however, I hope you take them because they are Godly and just may spare you many ‘regrets’.

First, let’s define the word, regrets.   According to the dictionary, it means the following:

  • to feel sorrow or remorse for (an act, fault, disappointment, etc.)
  • to think of with a sense of loss

Regrets need to be felt for the moment and then let go.  If feeling regrets last for more than moments, they will cause terrible emotional trauma.  That trauma can lead to depression, self-doubt, lower self-esteem, anxiety and despair. Those five elements I just mentioned, all too often, are the common thread found in those who become involved in addiction.  Emotional pain is something people think they need to run away from, rather than work through.

Regrets cannot be avoided; we’re mere humans with way too many frailties.  They should never be given permission to stay with you.  The hurts of your past should be taken over by the lessons they offered you – not the ongoing pain.  Never allow your past to meet your present and future.  Regrets will paralyze you if you allow them.  First, feel the regrets.  Then, we need to work through them – not around them.  Voila!  A new life lesson is born to guide your today and your tomorrow!  As long as we learn to do it differently the next time, it becomes a welcome lesson – not something to beat yourself up about.

How did I bury all of the regrets that I had?  I’ll tell you.  It is strictly a change of mindset… AND by the grace of GOD!  I used to drug and drink to run from my own mistakes.  For decades, I thought I was a true believer in Jesus Christ, as I popped those pills and drank my scotch.  I fell into deep despair and couldn’t understand why Jesus wasn’t fishing me out of the torturous net of depression that I was entangled in.  Later on, in 2007, I learned why.  It was because I was deep in sin with drugs, and the behaviors they produced in me.  Make no mistake, sin prevents God from working in us.  It leads to no place that’s good.  Don’t be troubled with the word, ‘sin’.  It simply means behaviors or thoughts that are contrary to God’s commands.  In one word, it’s rebellion.  Ask the Lord to forgive you, and then forgive yourself.

I have learned, from all the years up until 2007 – when God set me free of addiction – that I am in the process of being perfected by my faith by God.  He guides me in words and actions.  I put His Word into my heart and pray, each day, for Jesus to be my eyes, my ears, my mind, my thoughts, my words and my actions.  Do I make mistakes?  Of course; however, I repent quickly and learn how to do it differently the next time, so that my mistakes never again turn into regrets.

1 John 1:9:

“If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins

and purify us from all unrighteousness”

For the Lord’s wisdom, we need to humble ourselves before God, knowing that doing it our own way doesn’t work.  It’s only God’s way that brings us to Heaven in eternity. Seek Him!


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If You Can ID Your Obstacles, You May Be On Your Path To Freedom

Have you ever given obstacles a thought?  You know… the things that come between you and your short and long term goals?  Most people see them as a road block, while others see them as a means of gaining strength by knocking them down.  Others don’t see them at all; they just get the idea that they cannot move forward in the direction that they would like to and consider them a no go for what they are looking towards.  How do YOU view obstacles?  Can you ID them?

The Bible says, “I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me”. I choose to own that scripture and, so, I never give up.  During the darkest times that I ever had to go through in my former addiction, I knew that the Lord was with me and that He would never disappoint me.  He didn’t!  I won!  Through it all, I learned a life lesson to persevere… endure… stick around and win the race.   What about you?  Do you persevere or do you give up?  There’s a quote that says, “it’s not the mountain ahead of you, it’s the pebble in your shoe”.  Take off your shoe and shake out that pebble.  Then, full speed ahead.


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Things to Consider as you Gain POWER Over Addiction – Yes, I said POWER!

Weakness and strength are two opposing powers – you can have one or the other.  The 12 Steppers would love you to believe that you are powerless over your current or former addiction.  They only reap their benefits when they brainwash you into thinking that you’ll never have power and strength.  The God of the Bible says differently.  He understands that the flesh is weak; however, He also knows that when we come to Jesus, we now have the Power of God Himself working within us through His Holy Spirit.  If you declare yourself powerless, then you are denying God ~ plain and simple.  Is that what you want to do?  Really?  In the day you enter eternity, do you want want to hear Jesus tell you, “good and faithful servant”; or, do you want Him to say, “I never knew you”?
In 2 Corinthians, chapter 12, verse 10, the Holy Spirit, through Paul, says, “Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I am strong. God cannot and does not lie.  So, just believe Him!  Is your Heavenly Father going to harm you?  Of course not!  He will love and strengthen you.  There is only one father of lies who is in this world to destroy you;  his name is Satan… the one who has infiltrated and who permeates the 12 Steps. NEVER give away of deny the power the Lord has placed within you.  As a Christian, it belongs to you!

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Posted in Accidental Overdose, Benzodiazepines, Opiates, Opioids, Prescription Drug Addiction, recovery, suffering, Uncategorized, Withdrawal

C’mon… There’s Got to be an UpSide to Opioids, Benzos, Hypnotics and Psychiatric Drugs… right?

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There is NO UPSIDE.  They will lethally bite you back – suddenly – when you least expect it – in more horrific and unmerciful ways that you ever thought possible!  If you haven’t started, don’t!  If you take benzos, opioids, hypnotics (sleeping pills) or psychiatric drugs, get professional help TODAY with medically supervised detox.  I don’t care who you are, do NOT detox yourself or the bite will be far worse than you could ever imagine!  Unless you’ve been there, you’re clueless. It takes just one tiny pill.  I know.  I’ve spoken with too many people whose loved ones just took one dose and died.  Some were teens.  I was beyond blessed to have lived through it.



Posted in Accidental Overdose, Addiction, Opiates, Opioids, Prescription Drug Addiction, recovery, Uncategorized, Withdrawal

A Word to Those of You Taking Benzos, Opioids, and Psychiatric Medications

No matter what I say here today, NEVER NEVER NEVER discontinue these types of medications on your own OR try to detox yourself.  If you do, you are putting yourself in extreme harm’s way.  Even addicted doctors should never do this on their own.  Detoxing must be medically supervised in order to be safe.  These types of drugs are loose canons – UNPREDICTABLE.  I don’t care how smart or clever you think you are, do NOT attempt this on your own.  If you do, you are not a smart or balanced individual, which is probably because you are under the spell of these dangerous medications.  Included, but not limited to, results of detoxing yourself are: seizures, heart attack, psychosis, delusions, severe depression, hallucinations, stroke and death.

So, why do you need to detox.  After stating the above, it’s not rocket science.  While these drugs ‘appear’ to partially resolve some psychiatric issues, they cause side effects that override any temporary benefits.  The side effects include making worse the symptoms of the original problem for which you took them for.  The addiction they all cause all lead to horrific withdrawal, which it a nightmare all it’s own.  People taking hypnotics (sleeping pills) find that they can no longer sleep and require dangerously higher dosages which can lead to death.  Painkillers, after a short time, will cause an exacerbation of pain.  Tranquilizers (benzos) will cause agitation, severe muscle cramping, depression and psychosis.  Antidepressants cause worsening depression.  ALL of these drugs can cause strange behaviors, suicide and homicide.

The following are 12 shocking facts about the dangers of psychiatric drugs.  Please become familiar with them.

1. No Physical Test Can Prove the Existence of a “Mental Disorder”

No blood, urine, or chemical imbalance exam can test for the presence of a mental disease or illness. Even x-rays or brain scans can’t show the presence of a “mental disorder.”  This leads many to believe that healthy patients have a great possibility of being diagnosed with supposed “disorders” even if they are only displaying minor symptoms. Many of these symptoms include stress and difficulty concentrating — issues that can often be chalked up as a natural response to everyday stress. I, along with many Bible believing Christians, know that there is no such thing as ‘mental illness’ – there is demonic possession and oppression.

2. The Psychiatric Industry is a $330 Billion Industry

That’s a huge number and many forces are at work to preserve and grow it. While most physicians are not mercenary in their approach to prescribing medications, there is an argument to be made for the possibility of a conflict of interest when it comes to the rise of psychiatric prescriptions.

3. Worldwide, Over 100 Million People Take Psychiatric Drugs

That seems like an astoundingly high number. What’s going on that so many among us feel the need to be medicated?

4. U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs: 23 Soldiers and Vets Commit Suicide Every Day

The most shocking part of this statistic is that it exists despite the use of antidepressants. These suicides are often due to post-traumatic stress disorder coupled with the inability to cope with civilian life. So far, the solution has just been more psychiatric drugs.

5. Worldwide, 17 Million Children Take Psychiatric Drugs

To say that this is a dangerous epidemic is an understatement. Regulatory agencies in Europe, Australia, and the United States have issued warnings about the potential for anti-depressants to cause suicide or hostility and rage.

6. 10 Million of These Kids are in the United States

That means the United States has 30% more children than the rest of the world on addictive stimulants, antidepressants, and other mind-altering drugs. That’s not a number one position to be proud of.

7. FDA Warnings Have Been Issued for Ritalin and Concerta

And they aren’t alone, and other psychiatric stimulants have had similar warnings issued for their effects on children.  What’s the problem? Well, for starters, these drugs may cause psychotic behavior, heart attack, stroke and sudden death. If that’s not enough, add suicidal thoughts and inclinations toward violent behavior to the list.

8. Antidepressants Come With a Warning Label

In 2004, the FDA finally ordered a “black box” label on all antidepressants to warn of psychiatric drugs’ increasing suicide risk in children and adolescents. Being an adult, however, doesn’t guarantee safety. In 2006, the FDA increased the age to include young adults up to age of 25.

9. Children Five and Under Are the Fastest Growing Group Being Prescribed Antidepressants

Think of all the kids under five you know — they’re the target for these drugs. [10] Now picture this, from 1995-1999, antidepressant use increased 580% in ages 6 years and younger. It grew 151% in the 7-12 age group during the same time period. [11] Without action, it’s only going to go up from there. Do you think children should take these drugs? Watch this video and decide for yourself…

10. 10% of Teens Abuse Ritalin and Adderall

That’s according to a U.S. news report. No surprise, these drugs have a tendency to be highly addictive.  Unfortunately, because kids are prescribed these drugs en masse, availability isn’t much of an issue and they don’t need to head over to skid row to pick this stuff up.

11. General Physicians Prescribe 70% of Psychotropic Drugs

No offense to family practice physicians, but should they be the ones prescribing the majority of these mind medicines? Pragmatically, this statistic literally means that a majority of these drugs get used without a psychiatric evaluation to determine if they’re necessary, appropriate, or safe.

12. Some Reports Show Antidepressants are No Better than Placebo

While published reports do show 94% effectiveness, taking a look at the total reports submitted to the FDA, only 50% reported positive outcomes. That being said, around 50% of patients would be better off taking a placebo. In addition, 31% of the 74 FDA-registered studies have never been published.  Sound like a complicated number soup yet? It is, a 2009 analysis showed traditional pharmaceutical drugs yield inconsistent results.

A Final Thought…

While not everyone will succumb to the negative effects of psychiatric drugs, the risk of negative side effects cannot be ignored and should absolutely be thoroughly discussed and understood. In some cases, natural remedies for mood support may be a viable option. If you want to learn more about this insanity? You have to watch this video…

The Marketing of Madness: The Truth About Psychotropic Drugs

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Did any of these facts surprise you? Do you have an experience with psychiatric drugs?

Portions of this article were taken from HERE.

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